AC 1909 - what is our end? or love?; AC 1911 - intellectual truth vs. 'the rational first conceived'

Quotation marks were added to clarify the phrase
'the rational first conceived'.

AC 1909 [2]
There are many affections belonging to the exterior person,
all dedicated to their uses;
but the affection of knowledges stands preeminent above them all,
when it has for its end that we may become truly rational,
for thus it has good and truth for its end.

Everyone may see what kind of life he has,
if he will only search out what his end is;
not what all his ends are -
for he has numberless ones, as many as intentions,
and almost as many as judgments and conclusions of thoughts,
which are only intermediate ends,
variously derived from the principal one, or tending to it -
but let him search out the end he prefers to all the rest,
and in respect to which all others are as nothing.
If he has for his end himself and the world,
let him know that his life is infernal;
but if he has for his end the good of his neighbor, the common good,
the Lord's kingdom, and especially the Lord Himself,
let him know that his life is heavenly.

AC 1911[2-7]
. . . it is an intellectual truth that all life is from the Lord;
but 'the rational first conceived' does not apprehend this,
and supposes that if it did not live from itself it would have no life;
(and) it is indignant if the contrary is said,
as has been many times perceived from the spirits
who still cling to the fallacies of the senses.

It is an intellectual truth that all good and truth are from the Lord;
but 'the rational first conceived' does not apprehend this,
because it has the feeling that they (all good and truth) are as from itself;
and it also supposes that if good and truth were not from itself,
it could have no thought of good and truth,
and still less do anything good and true;
and that if they are from another
it should let itself go,
and wait all the time for influx.

It is an intellectual truth that nothing but good is from the Lord,
and not even the least of evil;
and this too 'the rational first conceived' does not believe,
but supposes that because the Lord governs everything,
evil also is from Him;
and that because He is omnipotent and omnipresent, and is good itself,
and does not take away the punishments of the evil in hell,
He wills the evil of punishment;
when yet He does evil to no one,
nor does He will that anyone should be punished.

It is an intellectual truth that the celestial person
has from the Lord a perception of good and truth;
but 'the first rational' either denies the existence of perception altogether,
or supposes that if a person were to perceive from another,
and not from himself, he would be as if inanimate, or devoid of life.
In fact the more the rational thinks from memory-knowledges
that originate from sensuous things and from philosophical reasonings,
the less does it apprehend the foregoing and all other intellectual truths,
for the fallacies therefrom are involved in so much the darker shades.
So it is that the learned believe less than others.

Since 'the rational first conceived' is such,
it is evident that ' it despises its mistress' (Hagar regarding Sarai),
that is, it lightly esteems intellectual truth.
Intellectual truth does not become manifest (open to view),
that is, is not acknowledged,
except as far as fallacies and appearances are dispersed,
and these are not dispersed
so long as a person reasons about truths themselves
from things of sense and from memory-knowledges,
but it for the first time becomes manifest
when he believes from a simple heart
that it is truth because so said by the Lord.
Then the shades of fallacies are dispersed,
and then nothing in him prevents him from understanding it.

In the Lord however there were no fallacies,
but when His 'rational was first conceived'
there were appearances of truth that in themselves were not truths . . ..
So also His 'rational at its first conception' lightly esteemed intellectual truth;
but gradually, as His rational was made Divine,
the clouds of the appearances were dispersed,
and intellectual truths lay open to Him in their light;
and this is represented and signified
by Ishmael being expelled from the house when Isaac grew up.